Parental Resilience and Balanced Success
The unfolding of my motherhood has become the best love story. It is fascinating the way my little one rides alongside me while undergoing my human process. This far into it I see I’ve been lead to God’s version of success for me. On a soul level I am satisfied with the fruits of our journey together resulting in resilience, wisdom and perfect alignment.
I appreciate Luna’s unwavering love for me in my journey of unlearning, healing and blooming where life plants me. She blossoms beside me as I grow in self control, responding to triggers with wisdom and ego shedding for a healthier reality. This restores presence so I can live in my fullness as a parent, human being and artist.
More and more I am embracing the lessons and gifts the early stages of parenthood brought. I am pleased I can finally see that every challenge has served the highest good as the growth and reward ring louder than the trial.
The more evident my progress becomes the more incentive I have to transfer it to other aspects of life. Lately I’ll ask myself, ok I just bought lipstick and treated Luna to toys. Do I really need to over consume on impulse items? Or could that money be more productively used for her travel fund for Dad? Do we really need to order in every day or can we be healthy and frugal and cook at home?
Recently I was told that it is obvious what Luna brings out of me. That is revealed to me as I see myself grow in authority. Often I’ll pause and ask myself, am I being too playful? Am I speaking from a place of authority or trying to be her friend? Truthfully the discipline hurts my heart but I know excess softness will lead us nowhere.
What is most rewarding is the growth in my relationships stemming from my role as a parent. When opportunity presents itself there’s a flood of questions I go through mentally. Is this the right situation for me to invite into Luna’s life? Does this support the present version of me who has unlearned programming that sabotages her? Is this a person who I could potentially trust with my child? Are their habits that of someone who could truly add value and enrichment to our world?
This makes me feel like I am light years ahead of my younger self. It brings peace of mind knowing I have the will to do right by her. Letting the human in me coexist with my fullness is at the core of my journey. Landing on my feet as a parent is even more rewarding. I can trust myself as an example for Luna to follow.
